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To Love or Not to Love

Out of Emptiness emerged something extraordinary, a sense of awareness of being.  Wise men, fools, dreamers, the religiously arrogant, philosophers, liars, poets, mystics and sages have written much between that (imaginary) first moment way outside time when the awareness said, “something is doing something.”  We shall let all beings have their story, leave them be and attempt to come into our present state of awareness.
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An Uncluttered Present
This present, the supposed NOW that some people speak of is colored by the past. The experiencer has a history, deep in the subconscious and expressing on the screen of life as we know it is a story of who we are, concepts about the way the world works, the possibles and impossibles.  If we are clear that generally the NOW that many people talk about has baggage, there will be a slight shift in awareness, a deepening, we will be more inclined to stop for a brief moment and not just scroll past it like we do with social media posts.  If we robotically say Be Here Now and make assumptions and think that we have it sorted, it is possible that the flippant attitude that we apply to many of the other things in our lives will once again prevent us from digging in.  Constantly abandoning the past is something that can be done, it may be gradual, for some it may come as a quantum leap, there may be a light-bulb moment, it’s then that the work begins.
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That Elixir
By nature or better I say by habit, we are continuously calling up what we know, all those things that have impacted on us emotionally and also our understandings / conjectures about the reality / the world space we move in.   As humans, due to the cultures we are born into we have subtle prejudices. These ‘knowns’ are what stand in the way of LOVE.
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Love, that old word that has more definitions than a caterpillar has legs; love, that thing that people seek changing partners like an evening at a square dance in a country hall; love, that elixir that brings fierce looking grown men to their knees to weep buckets of tears; love, that wondrous misinterpreted something that is elusive as the quest for what God may or may not be.
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About ten years ago in brief a moment of ecstatic-ness I wrote on a blog post:

“LOVE, has no boundaries or judgements. It embraces the totally of all things born and still unborn. It waits patiently for us to take her hand and follow her to our greatest potential, it forgives our shortcomings and speaks quietly to us when we need her most. Love creeps through our life often unnoticed but catches us as we fall. Love is our only true friend, our faithful companion that walks with us from age to age, beyond the graves.” 
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Also the great sage Shams teacher of the Mystic poet Rumi tells us:
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The chemistry of mind is different from the chemistry of love. The mind is careful, suspicious, he advances little by little. He advises “Be careful, protect yourself” Whereas love says “Let yourself, go!” The mind is strong, never falls down, while love hurts itself, falls into ruins. But isn’t it in ruins that we mostly find the treasures? A broken heart hides so many treasures.
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In those words there is plenty to ponder.  Indulgent romantics will focus on the ‘broken heart’ always licking their wounds as if the world owes them something.  A Buddhist will remind us that attachment is our enemy.  Alan Watts, a great carrier of Zen to the West will echo the words ‘let yourself go’.  Shams wakes us up to the fact that the world of the mind and that of love are in contradiction.  Great men and woman know that we can only be a slave to one.  Take your pick, the mind or love.
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The Unknowing Mind
The mind likes to think it knows everything, it prides itself on information.  Love knows nothing.  Love dives in boots and all, it takes chances, it always stands on the threshold, right on the edge of the precipice.  Some people say love and hate are opposites, it is not hate that is the opposite of love, it is fear.  Fear is the gateway to love.  Fear must fall, it has no place in the world of love apart from being that which dissolves itself when love ultimately flowers.
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Love is Grand
When love becomes ‘personal’ it has a wondrous place but let’s move away from here, not because it has no value, self-indulgence only holds a small spot in the universe, we need to think big in the same way that the beings on this planet are only a dot compared to the other intelligent civilizations in the cosmos.   As confusing and as misconstrued as the word ‘God’, love has its interpreters and impostors.  The holier-than-thou religious babble nonsense about love, meantime looking down on their brothers and sisters, out-casting them with their hideous doom and gloom prophecies, and there are those New Agers who delight in ‘one day karma will get them back’, fully forgetting their own minds are filled with hatred and spiritual elitism.  Their version of love is poisonous, it has conditions, “be like me” and we can add to it “if you don’t, my God will get you you evil wretch”.  They fully forget the journey that got them to their present.
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The Alchemy called Life
On the journey into and through love there is accountability but it is not revengeful, it is self-perpetuating.  The great Gods, the word God here translates as those Beings who have journeyed out of original consciousness ions ago and learnt through experience, climbed out of the states of slumber and forgetfulness and become wondrous creative Beings with understandings that are incomprehensible to human intelligence, these great Gods do not have judgement.  They have patience, the virtue of acceptance of the diversity, they know that to get to be the extraordinary Gods that they are is not instantaneous, it is a trial by fire, it is alchemy, removing the gross metal to reveal the gold.
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Returning to Ourself
If we come back to ourselves and ask the right questions.  Who do I hate? What makes me feel better than others? What behaviors of others do I despise? Who do I look down upon? Why is my tribe, caste or social class better than others?  Why is my spirituality more pure and enlightened than others?  Do we see others as a lost cause and trailer trash? We will start to see how much love we have, when we hold the mirror up we will see our shadow and start to see that our love is selective. We can quote scriptures, speak in a manner that sounds pleasing to others, eat the ‘right’ foods, be part of animal liberation movements and do a lot of things that put us into the nice guy category but it’s an incomplete model of love.  Love is much deeper than this.
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Love is there in tenderness with our beloved, sure; it is in our empathy when something wells up inside us and we go past our normal limitations to help others; yes we have it for our families and pets.  But it is more.  Love is in acceptance of what we don’t like, learning not to despise the wickedness of human nature, and that doesn’t mean to delight in it, it is in understanding that the consciousness that underlies the totality manifests in ways that are incomprehensible to us.  We are quick to judge, often forgetting the path that leads us to now, not remembering that we have a story, that we were at some point whether in this life or way back in time in some other place we expressed in ways that were not kind, we betrayed, we hurt, we put ourselves first, we have added to suffering of others.  Love allows other things to be and that does not mean we have no boundaries in our lives and have a form of idiot-compassion that makes us say yes when the best solution is no.  It’s not just in our actions, it’s about our thoughts, do we vilify others just because they are different, because their wisdom is a dormant seed in their consciousness, that due to the experiences in their lives closed themselves down which lead them to actions that reflect a lack of self care or anger and animosity to others.  Is our ‘I am better-ness’ arrogant?  Are we at times the thing that we hate?
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Love arrives in a very strange way; it is common to hear the words “we cannot truly love until we love ourselves fully’; maybe not fully, that type of thinking leads to a feeling of worthlessness, never good enough, it creates an inverted ego.  Neither the ego or its upside down I-hate-me inverted twin have substance.  There is an open secret that we know but forget, every moment is new and this is an opportunity for new growth, the past season is over and although the winter may have been bitter, the autumn of our lives had a mix of joy and misfortune, the spring of new potential constantly remerges and there are new beginnings.  We can abandon our past and extract the wisdom of experience and wander with dignity into foreverness, touching everything on the way with kindness, creating a trail that brings joy to others where possible, being gentle on the world around us.
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I awake to a new day
Although the unborn is unseen out of view
I trust in the benevolence of the Universe
I am gentle, in this is my strength
I can bend and adapt to the changing fortunes that emerge
I am an embodiment of everything I have ever dreamed to be
I walk with dignity into foreverness

Tilopa 2.0

 

Yoga on the Mount of Olives

For years many people have said we live in troubled times, others have inferred it is the closing of one Age and the beginning of another, plus there was always those creepy extremist cult prophets with an odd stare and a bit of a twitch who said, “the world ends tomorrow”. Regardless of all the whacko prophets of gloom or the genuine Sages who saw the New Hope, whatever that mystery may be, is now on the doorstep. As crazy as some of the ‘theories’ and predictions were, a small group of those who were ostracised by others and considered to be part of the Looney Tunes crew are now to some degree vindicated. As every man and his dog has said “Truth is stranger than fiction”. There is a culling of the known and the unknown is taking centre stage whether you like it or lump it.
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So, as we wander through the next stage of the great mystery wondering what bizarre scenario will be served up by the extremely reliable news media who state things such as ‘we share the facts not opinions‘, which when analysed reminds me more of a manifesto of a team of well indoctrinated psychopaths, we have a global community of people with a response to the nightmare with a broad range of attitudes which to name a few are ‘I trust you and wish those pesky unbelievers who don’t respect science would go away’, ‘you said something different yesterday’, ‘didn’t Hitler do something similar’, ‘my healthy neighbours are now having heart attacks since visiting their doctor’, ‘I will live to tell the tale of the greatest crime against humanity has known’, ‘gee I wish there was more toilet paper, is there an epidemic of Bombay Belly or something?’
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Any Yogi, Yogini or casual yoghurt eater who reads extensively across the various religious texts may know the following text from the Book of Matthew when Yehsua ben Joseph aka Jesus sat on the Mount of Olives talking to his buddies said, ‘If they say, “Look he is in the Inner Rooms”, do not believe it. For as lightning comes from the East and shines as far as the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man”. That text is part of Chapter 24, it may seem insignificant to some people. There are many interpretations of religious and sacred texts and I always think the best approach is to enter with two things, an open mind and a little caution. The first is because if you enter with a limited perspective you will only get what you know, and secondly with caution because it is easy to fantasise and end up with a loopy philosophy.
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I am not overly interested in Doom and Gloom but I am interested in change, the world as we know it has changed forever and in these times it is critical to find joy in small things, to understand our loved ones may have a different view and make choices that upset us but that is a part of ‘Free Will’ that we need to respect, from the Vedic perspective it’s Kali Yuga when the bad masquerades as good, every Dark Night of the Soul eventually leads to a new day, a glorious future potential. Plenty of extra food, water and blankets is the bare minimum if possible.
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We (my small but wonderful network of friends with beautiful minds) are watching the Mount of Olives very very closely at the moment. And we also watch Paris and pray for the days ahead there.
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These are known as ‘the Days That Are Here’, they used to be ‘the Days To Come’ or as John of Patmos said ‘the Great Tribulation’.



The Lovers

the Lovers of God are not bound to any particular Faith,

although being part of a Faith is common to some

the Lovers are bound to God

God lives in the Heart of all Beings and is unconscious in many Particles

the only difference is that those who are not yet Lovers don’t realise God is closer than the breath

in these days of the Great Tribulation, remember, remember remember!

wisdom #1

Religion or spirituality is not about all agreeing on what God is or isn’t, it’s about transforming oneself into an extraordinary being who lives a beautiful life that represents as closely as possible the values expounded by Jesus Christ, making the world a better place and making known the unknown in our own sweet way.

alien mind control – in Christ we Trust

As promised when I started this blog, my intention was to output my work relating to alien consciousness. This work is very complex but I have managed over a number of months to bridge the gap of complexity and arrive at a reasonably simple way of articulating something that has intrigued and puzzled man for Eons, and in particular since the late 1940’s since various craft came in and crashed themselves on occasion with the assistance if others.

The misinformation in the field of aliens and ufos far exceeds any other area including that of God. As more Quantum Physicists, Astronomers and Astrophysicists gradually see pieces of the puzzle it is now time for the greater humanity who stare on in wonder to begin to understand the sparkle in the eyes of those who have had experiences which defy logic. A reminder that Jnana Yoga is just the beginning of this wonderful doorway into forever.

This first video I am sharing here was recorded casually in May 2020, no fancy video effects or whistleblowing from supposed insiders.

I’ve BEEN THERE and it is my obligation to speak out, sometimes with shaky knees other times with a boldness and then retreat back into my private life of solitude with donuts, coffee and a garden.

see link below

https://rumble.com/vbbjaj-alien-mind-control-in-christ-we-trust.html

Tilopa 4.0 (upgraded human)

End of the Age

Every dream has an ending.
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Because we have our senses feeding our brains with non stop info, touch, hearing, smell, taste, visuals, we make assumptions about the truth of our experiences and the solidity of the world.  We also see a history (real or a fabricated story), we assume that there is a continuous line into the future that travels on uninterrupted by events and the sense of order remains the same.
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Question Everything
If we dig around a little, without getting lost in the world of fantasies and conspiracy theories (some true and some which are hopeful meandering or paranoia based in joining a weird set of dots) we will see that civilisations have come and gone and we can assume that many of them are washed away under the ocean never to be seen again.  Archaeologists are constantly finding things that don’t add up to what is understood to be humanity’s past.  Every so often they locate mummies and skeletons that tug on the shirt tails of our known and we start asking what, who and why?
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Armageddon Syndrome
A lot of people suffer from what I will call Armageddon syndrome. To me this means that God (any god, usually a Judaeo Christian tyrant) is going to come and kick your butt because you may have done something naughty.  The elect (those who consider themselves the repentant saved) feel safe in knowing they have their ticket on the Truth Train and Jesus or some other great Master will say step on board grab your seat, come on and kiss my feet.  One would seriously wonder if such a thing were true, the belittling judgement of others would push you to the back of the queue and have you struggling for the last couple of spare seats. I will state i am not anti Christ. I have a great love for the Beatitudes.
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The Changing Times
There is a feeling of insecurity, fragility and mild anxiety sweeping the world.  I don’t for one moment assume it is just the pressure of modern living, feeling like the outgoings are more than the incomings, the electromagnetic energy or the environmental crimes committed by man that are the equivalent of punching oneself in the head. There is something that is whispered by the wind, the changes in nature, the climatic harmony of the seasons being out of time, the instability of the Earth with its constant shaking of the ground, the volcanoes, the ferociousness of the wind, the erratic movement of waters, the burning of the sun or bite of the cold.
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The Madmen
I am not interested in the Prophets of Doom with what I call their mental disorders damning humanity to misfortune, I spent my life reading, watching and contemplating the words of these madmen, creators of fear, threats of repent or else, looking down on the mere frailties and desires of human nature as if they were unforgivable afflictions that will condemn wonderful beings to a life of torture because they think their God says so.
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Changing Perspective
We stand now at the end of this civilisation. Some people who have bothered to investigate deeply, realise the last one ended around a hundred years back with those who ‘brought in’ the foundations of Quantum Physics. This altering of the perspective of the world and change in Physics is greater and more significant than many realise. It was not just a new understanding and a brand new theory and opinion on life, embodied in it is the escape hatch.  The world was no longer solid, expectations of what will happen were changed and the ‘pliability’ of what was observed, meaning the world/environment we move in was suddenly something that we the Observer of life/what we loosely call ‘reality’ became empowering to the individual (Observer/Point of Awareness). The tyrannical God who made every decision and designed the world according to His Plan was dethroned. What I  consider to be the death of God as we know it/Him would be considered as heresy by the religious fundamentalists and part of the agenda of the Anti Christ.  But my dearest friends know I adore the Godman who wandered Galilee, He was the game-changer.
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Death 
As many know, death is not oblivion, it is a movement of focus from one point to another, what is attached to that point of awareness/focus is altered because the Observer moves into a different environment with its own set of rules.  The death of God as we know it/Him is a change in awareness and responsibility.  Whereas prior, under a tyrannical God a person is subservient, limited in power, kept in place by conscious and subconscious threats of damnation with goal posts to move towards based on behaviours according to the rule book; the rebirth is into a state where one is not driven by fear or by promises of bliss, Valhalla, virgin brides, sitting next to the Boss, Elysian Fields or collecting milk curds around what they see as beautiful Gopala. Instead it is unfolding endless potentials onto the canvas of forever. It is about self – responsibility. God is a God of Love, benevolence not despair.
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Undoing Prophecy
Prophecy is not what people generally assume it to be. Prophecy is thought projected into a future and is not solid but is based in the mindset of the Observer. Throughout time it is adjusted by those who believe the dreamer of the prophecy and those believers add their agenda to the mix. Whether that future is true or not depends on a number of things.  Who observes it, whether one enters into that (for lack of words) hologram or whether the Observer has enough personal power to move aside that mindset and create a dream/prophecy that suits their needs or more specifically aligns with their level of consciousness.  Having said this, I am comfortable that the Mother Earth and every other planet, unborn or current star has their own destiny which is outside and separate from the Observer.  Prophecy is more about ones RELATIONSHIP to a future and is not a Macdonald’s type of solution where everybody eats the same or similar meal. However the imminent reappearance of Christ is a given.
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Many people now are aware of the false history that has been intentionally given to mankind, numerous historians unknowingly added to the myth. And people now are aware of the religious anomalies that disempower the individual and set up a handing over of self sovereignty to another, the individual has the freewill to do so, so how can you complain about personal choices of others?
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The End of Religion
Looking out my window of awareness it is now not unreasonable to say that religious institutions are collapsing because it is obvious, some of us have said it for decades and due to the crimes committed on us as children, have consciously lent a hand to help eradicate them so they are accountable and bring an awareness to the comatosed general public regarding the manipulation of the masses by religious institutions. However, women and men like myself are not atheists, it is that we see God as something that relates more to our innate nature and personal sovereignty than the religious circus full of exhibitions of devotion, hypocrisy and pompous butt kissing to those up-line in the hierarchy of self appointed nobodies.
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There are great changes coming to the world and it’s not a climate change rave. The sky is full of spacecraft, most are out of view, a few leave a calling cards but an awareness is growing in humanity that there has been manipulation and interference. Also there has been a network of Beings who has managed to protect humanity from imploding itself. The tyrants who have manipulated the world are gradually being exposed, a few of the religious institutions are in the process of being brought down for their crimes against humanity but I will state non apologetically, expect them ALL to go down. Nature is shaking her garment and is eradicating what is not equal to her best interests.
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God always wins – May Christ return to Earth

The Days to Come – 2.0

Those of us (and there are many) that have some type of non-caucasian heritage in our family streams are born with a genetic program of some sort that there is a need to rise, an inner yearning to reclaim something back, to restore sovereignty in some way that we feel has been suppressed or taken away. This feeling is normal and as I look across ALL cultures/peoples regardless of colour of skin, religious or sexual orientation it is common to ALL but at times amplified in some more than others.
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We can love our culture, it’s beauty, it’s contribution to the tapestry of humanity and give thanks to those who have gone before, honour them for their toil, struggles and foundations that got us ‘here’ now to the NARRATIVE of what we perceive to be the melting pot of the human race. I give thanks to our forefathers and in particular our foremothers and also those lineages long lost and forgotten and hidden forever.
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We shall rise not by the colour of our skin, not by our religious preferences or our ideologies which may be sound or delusional BUT by the spark of Divinity that is seeded in all creatures, all things, in all potentials yet to manifest on the Canvas of Forever. It is not our clinging to Gods whether real or imaginary that takes us into the wondrous future, it is our relationship with Dharma. Dharma although associated with Eastern religious tradition is not bound by any faith, it is the adherence to a set of principles that nurtures not only ourselves but also all of nature, all beings seen and unseen, it is this very thing that frees man from bigotry, a feeling of worthlessness, a sense of being downtrodden or injustice.
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As we face the New Day ahead and look back on the divisions that now play heavy on our hearts, we may see it is adjustments in our nature, our habits and more so our thoughts that will bring about great change and transform the shadows that hanged heavily over the world. As a species humanity will shake off its intolerances and misunderstandings and it WILL see a new world emerge, it WILL overcome the bitterness of separation and WILL understand that UNITY is in Spirit and although that spark seems to be hidden, it shall emerge with wonder and we shall dream a new world into being.
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And for those that do not travel on this journey, we wish them well and pray that one day they find a way that nurtures their being into wonder, beauty, gentleness of Spirit.
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The meek Will inherit the Earth

The Yoga of Corona :)

In this day and Age, humanity has been duped. The Spirit has been turned into a commodity, those with the best marketing tricks have the exposure, those who say something that is appealing are loved and those who hold the power have manipulated the destiny of Man to suit their agenda. It has been said that those who control the narrative of God rule the world. A greater truth has never been spoken. I could have called this article the Tao of Not Sniffing, the Zen of Achoo, the Gospel According to the End of Civilisation as We Knew It. I will spare the smarty-pants humour and dig in.
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A Useful Tool 
Humanity is resilient. Years ago I heard the word forbearance in relation to the Spirit and I plastered it on my forehead, at times I have forgotten to look at my brow region where it was attached  with industrial strength chewing gum but like the great Sage Rumi once said, “Even if you have broken your vows a thousand times, come, ours is not a caravan of despair.” Once again I will call that great guiding light ‘forbearance’ into play, it is truly what makes a difference.
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Change
The human race has hit breaking point, the false idols, all those things we craved have enslaved the brilliant race of Forgotten Gods that we are.  Idiots have become heroes, servants of tyrants with hidden-agendas have ruled the masses from behind closed doors and hedonism once again threatened to wipe out the human species. And then it happened, God Sent Everyone to Their Room.  I will not begin to even define that Sublime Super Consciousness thing called God, I will just run with my statement because it clearly defines what is going on, I will not attempt to justify whether God exists or not, that’s YOUR business.
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Yoga is Important Here
Yoga means union, not backflips with your toe up your nostril, not exhibitions of devotion, not diets, not the reciting of ‘age old truths’ which are often flawed monotonous texts used  by half baked yogis to get their way with young women and steal everyone’s money as they keep you imprisoned and suck your energy to empower themselves.  Yoga is simple, it is the side-stepping of thought and the flowing of the Mind of God in the core of our Being, unimpeded by the ‘known’ which is the limited mindset that keeps humanity imprisoned. This is UNITY, this is YOGA.  The rest is related to show-ponies.
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The Great Teacher

Many of us in the West, unless we have served time in the military or come from a terror-zone have not experienced war. Many (not all)  have lived our lives in a manner where the day was a little too hot, far too cold, food’s too salty, too sweet, not good enough, we buy something and it sits in a corner barely used, objects flew in the door like there was no tomorrow.  And then, tomorrow is here now with the feeling of the rug being pulled from under us and for some it can be terrifying and it requires a little empathy and compassion on our part to care for others at this time, even though it may mean waving at them through a pane of glass. I remember in the early 1980’s being locked in a room at the border of Pakistan in the middle of nowhere by an arrogant threatening immigration guy who said he was never going to let me out unless I gave him all my money. A terrifying moment for a young man, however I lived to eat more than my share of donuts and swallow many a good coffee.  I learnt that the ability to throw a rope around my thoughts and make them my slave as often as possible is the safest pathway out of the moment, it has allowed me to rejoice at the sight of a new day dawning, nature will follow its natural course.  I know that my state of mind is the difference between what I see in the world around me, how I value it and whether it becomes my friend or enemy.
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Going Without
I am not a lover of asceticism, only the deluded need apply for that role.  But I do consider moderation as a sensible way to live. Humanity is now being offered forced moderation.  I am aware that a study was done on which people live the longest.  It turned out to be a community on a Japanese island who only eat until they are 2/3 full.
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We as a community thought there was endless water, the droughts came to teach us; we thought that we were safe in our homes, the floods and fires came. And now something which is almost virtual has arrived in the form of a pandemic. Anyone who has ever been in an ashram, monastery, retreat or lockdown knows at those times when you ‘don’t get your way’ stuff comes up.  All those little niggling thoughts, the ‘I wants’, I can’t live without, the endless stream of desires, the rushing and rolling waves of thoughts crashing on the shoreline of our thinking can at times be unsettling.  We need to calm the sea.
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The wisest man I ever met said to me, “There comes a time when a man has to say to himself, I refuse to be kicked around by my thoughts any longer.” I learnt over the years to take one small idea and run with it, turn it inside out, look at it from every angle, put it to the test, to not be lazy with it, be ferocious, and then you will see its potential.
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Prophecy
For some, this time will be seen as the times the prophets spoke of and others what they call the Days to Come.  Although we need to be vigilant and consider any possibility with great discrimination, regardless what this period may or may not be, I am comfortable with the idea that SOME prophecy would easily be altered because prophecy starts with thought and is an impression in the mind of the Observer of a potential of what may come to pass, the world is not solid, it never was, it is a collection of particles temporarily held in place in Space and Time.  To be a slave to a religious idea may be dangerous at the moment ( if not always) because it allows others to influence our thinking. AND even though as some wise men would say it may well be the Fall of Babylon in Revelation chapter 18, it definitely would not mean the end of Civilisation, just the system that was in place that allowed the tyranny to function. We know all tyrannies have a shelf-life and the Benevolent Universe that we are a part of, makes sure that like every other species that exists in the Cosmos, humanity must unfold and evolve unimpeded as it should.
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May All Beings Be Happy

 

 

Being Detached from Attachment

In the Spiritual community the word Attachment gets thrown around like a bong at a stoner party.  Attachment is a word the Buddhists seem to have adopted as their own and in a way it can be used by some as a subtle weapon at times to punish themselves and others. On the other hand if attachment is considered intelligently, if a person follows the dots the wisdom from it can lead a person to a balanced life. I will throw a firecracker into the meditation room and say “a balanced life is not it”, it’s not what people are really seeking.  Let me explain.
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The Trap of Suffering
There is the view by some that life is suffering and it is important to get rid of suffering, get off the wheel of life and do something else, whether it be Nirvana, Utopia, Valhalla, escape onto spacecraft Avalon or live out ones future eating health food and adhere to some type of Spiritual Practice that brings about temporary contentment and hopefully if you do enough of the right stuff it takes you to a better afterlife and also on the way develop a decent skillset to manage the difficulties on the way.  That’s fair enough but I know beyond doubt from experience that suffering brings about change, wisdom, it turns mere mortals back into Gods.  If we follow a number of the Paths and have self-discipline there needs to be great caution that we are not just avoiding life and side-stepping suffering; we may due to our adherence to self discipline become good men or women, balanced, empathic, compassionate, be self-disciplined, it’s good enough for some but great men and women don’t lie down like the reclining Buddha, they are not attached to detachment. Make no mistake, Buddha is my hero and Buddhism it has played a great role in the transformation of social consciousness and the individual, its focus on the mind as opposed to worship has pulled many men and women out of the mire. Having said that, I question the authenticity of some of the Buddhists texts, it’s unreasonable to say they haven’t become corrupted in some way. Human consciousness is evolving and it’s time to move forward and break down the gate of the prison-houses whether they be Christian, Vedic, Buddhist or any other dogma.
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OUCH OUCH OUCH
Life has a knack of whacking us with a sledgehammer; hard enough to take us just this side of the limit, the irony of it is it leaves us in the position where it doesn’t quite finish us off. People are caught in a loop suffering as the replay experiences in their thought, day after day waiting for the final blow. OR on the other hand like the burning remains of the incense stick, they may rise with dignity. From the incense stick there emerges something beautiful, a sweet scent that fills the world. In the ashes is our personal history, it lies around for a while and then gets blown away in time.  That is also the way to approach the past, let it lie, the winds of time will blow it away, contrary to most psychology there often is no need to go BACK there.
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I speak from experience. This body and its associative awareness, as it moved along its timeline has gone through extraordinary trauma.  These experiences are not something I will hold up and say, “please feel sorry for me or give me empathy and sympathy”. Although sympathy and empathy are very desirable attributes of human nature, what happens in the ‘receiver’ is they strengthen the ‘false identity’ of the receiver by reinforcing its relationship to the past.  I wont use the word Ego, there is so much baggage with that word, it is better that I keep it fresh.  Each of us will have a story that will make the eyes of others fill with tears; there is no need strengthen the Buddhist idea of all life is suffering, that statement would need to be ripped apart and discussed properly.  I am more inclined to simply say, “suffering arises and falls on the screen of life.” Having the view that ‘suffering arises and falls‘ allows for breathing space and we don’t end up walking around with a feeling deep in our subconscious programming as if something is wrong all the time or as some do with the subtle idea in the the background that we should have some type of spiritual guilt because we are alive and humans are a burden to the planet.
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Joy is critical and often if we have concepts of attachment being a problem, we may find ourselves avoiding life, as I was a long term experiencer of that program I can easily see the trap.  Many people who are interested in Eastern Spirituality get caught in the idea of ‘running’, transcending, hiding from life. There are some who are interested in being present and experiencing the NOW but if it is not approached with a keen eye, it also can be something that keeps a person ‘walking on the same spot’, whether a person is holding a magnifying glass looking at a leaf or gazing at it naturally it is still the same leaf.  If there is not a deep understanding that the creative process is about the FUTURE, the present can have a lot of baggage and the subconscious will create limitations.  Although I do fully support the need to when you sip tea, just sip tea, when you eat chocolate, take time and don’t gobble the whole block‘ 
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The Enchantment of Attachment 
The human senses are by nature hooked into the world that the body moves in; sweet smell of roses, the taste of coffee, the tender touch of a loved one, an enchanting melody, the shades of green in the late afternoon creating a sense of mystery and wonder … these all leave an impression on the experiencer, the alluring spell calls you back for more … the sweetness of that first kiss, the cool water on a summers day, chocolate on the tongue, the dreamy sensation of the pitter patter of rain when tucked in and feeling cosy in bed.  The sadhus, sadhaks, monks, renunciants need to be reminded about the beauty of life and deeply consider why there is a 3D form.  Life is about experience, FEELINGS, to taste the bitterness as well as the sweet, to look up in wonder at the moon and the stars, to feel the life pulsating in another. Great caution is required as a spiritual aspirant not to poison the beautiful gifts of life.
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Focus
The brilliant men and woman I have encountered walk on the edge, they are not lukewarm and seeking comfort and peace like most people, their balance is in their vision, the ability to go beyond mediocrity, they push outside the parameters of what is acceptable, and that doers not mean they are crude, hedonistic and lack self-discipline.  Their balance is in their internal gaze, they have the ability to focus on what will carry them through the storms of life.  It may seem as if I have said balanced life is not a good thing, if it comes about well good that is a blessing but if the compromise is to live in mediocrity and be a slave to a spiritual practice that becomes bigger than oneself then it is stagnation.
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Go beyond the stars, go past the expected, destroy the known, be a giant, a hero to yourself, the world has too many wimps.

Tilopa 2.0

The Yoga of Depression

Depression is something that I like many other people know too well. I have a story, my oldest son killed himself, also I am an experiencer of crimes against humanity.  If I wanted to tell you my story I could make you cry in a split second. However, I do not wish to be that man, one who tells a tale of heartbreak, despair, hopelessness and all the other responses that can manifest after trauma.
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The Room
Some years ago I found myself in a situation where I thought I had lost everything, circumstances were such that I woke up at 6 in the morning in a room  with the smell of other peoples smelly feet (definitely a serious problem) and body odour, rubbish everywhere.  I was in a backpackers because I had to relocate and it was the fastest solution I could find. That probably doesn’t sound bad but it was the circumstances that lead me there which were heartbreaking. We don’t need that story either, it’s the response we are interested in.  Life rolls along and STUFF HAPPENS.
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On that morning was a defining moment, we have all heard of the Dark Night of the Soul when even our god has betrayed us, this was my turn to wander through the Valley of Darkness but not like in the Psalm where there is a hope.  I wept, there was grief, it felt like the end of the world and there was no way out.
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Rethinking
I was very lucky as a child, my parents knew I was clever, brains and sensitivity, they said I was ‘deep’.  I was very religious and it isolated me, it was odd for a boy to pray for hours, I still think it’s a bit creepy at times.  But I loved the ‘space’, the silence in the church where I could escape and my thoughts were free.  The story I got from my parents of being ‘clever’ helped shape me.  I have always said I am a genius and I won’t back down on that one, I invite others to be brilliant if they can’t cope with being a genius.
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As I lay in my bed with the smell of bad odour around, the germaphobe within was on high alert, I was scared to breathe in case the particles of smelly socks made their way up my nostrils, the bed felt slightly greasy, it was cold, dark, I will add raining even if it wasn’t and I know there were ghosts in the room (another story).
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I See My Light Come Shining
In a moment from nowhere came my inner Batman, Superman or other superhero of choice, he began to push through the negative thoughts, my genius had arisen, the Avatar of  Vishnu incarnated, the Christ returned, Buddha awoke… there it was. I saw the doorway and went through, I conquered the Bardo.  What I did may not seem overly important, it could be perceived as trivial.
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I cannot remember a day in my life getting out of bed before 6 a.m without a serious reason.  I still didn’t get up.  I lay there and made a decision that changed my life forever, I decided to go forward and not to wallow in the past. I chose to create a new pathway into forever.  I made a conscious choice to do three things after I had jumped out of bed and had showered.  The first was I did an hours IT study of a programming language, secondly I did an hours music theory study and thirdly I played two hours of guitar.
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Understanding
What I have said above may not seem significant, however, I made a conscious decision to never go back to what hurt me, to rise above the circumstances that were going on around me which broke my heart (no it wasn’t romance). I planted seeds that would grow into trees in my garden that I knew would eventually outgrow the weeds and vines of entanglement in my life; I trusted in myself.  This was just over six years ago and although I like many others have had difficult days, the foundation I laid at the crossroads of my life where I was totally broken has lead me to a wondrous place.
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The Many Forms of Yoga
So why have I called this the Yoga of Depression?  To put it simply, everything is constantly unified, it all MOVES in GOD.  The word Yoga relates to unity; when we are out of the flow such as in a state of depression or despair we are fragmented, we don’t see the continuation of life, we see things in still frames, the unity is obscured.  The ART of life is about turning things that are discarded and broken into useful things.  Old branches of trees make it to the fireplace to warm us or even make beautiful furniture.  Food scraps become compost to feed the garden.  One mans trash is another mans treasure … may we always find the treasures.
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May all beings be happy